Every year I go "Halloween season insane" from decorations to baking to dinner ware. Every aspect of my house is done up for the month of October. But three years ago after my ex and I broke up it seems that all of our "friends" no longer have time for me. I've reached out to people, some respond and that's it and most is never hear from. I am no longer the kind of person who likes to go to bars or clubs or host crazy parties. But I can't even do anything small at home because of these "friends" I've rid my life of pretty much all of them and even the few actually good friends of mine seem to forget when I invite them to do things, never seem to respond back to me. I really am hitting a point of great sadness between my health issues and fake "friends" I do feel alone. This year was the worst and when Halloween started approaching I was happier and started planning (way later than I ever have lol) and this was the weekend I was going to have some people over and they all had an excuse. Don't get me wrong it's obvious these people are a waste of my time but of course it still hurts. This weekend I feel like my Halloween spirit died. Halloween is my favorite time of year from its Irish roots to what it has been made into today! I even have hopes of someday owning my own haunt in my home town. But this weekend sadly I feel more depressed than usual. I feel more lonely and as if my dreams died. It sounds a bit dramatic I know, but Halloween is truly the one thing that makes me feel genuinely happy I couldn't even spend the weekend with my boyfriend because he received over time this weekend. Which is great of course! I'm tired of being around people and feeling so alone. I can't lose my Halloween spirit, my future plans keep me going and keep me happy if anyone has some uplifting words of wisdom or has gone through a similar situation I would love to hear from you. It might help me out a bit this year thanks for reading my rant, I appreciate it.