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In essence, due to a health issue with a family member turned out to be more serious than initially diagnosed and that coupled with the fact that past few years of doing display at their home (parent's) backyard which is western themed (see here) have felt less and less rewarding in terms of 'interest level' from the people who see it and no public access, really am just currently in a slump and lost basically all the usual pre-Halloween energy and excitement. Even doubtful get to attend the usual events go to with family at the so. California theme parks - Knott's Scary Farm, HHN, home haunts, etc, due to father's health and that rather adds to the depression. Not sure what seek to gain by typing all this out, just has hit me hard and unexpectedly - figured at least folks here could appreciate the rather surprising feeling of 'hurt' or loss at the lack of excitement tied in with recent developments, and even guilt from worrying about such 'trivial' things in light of the health issues at play with the parent, being selfish if want things to be normal at all.
So apologies for this rant, and if thread really doesn't belong here, my apologies to site staff - it can be moved to whatever sub-forum is most fitting. I just felt had to say this somewhere and don't expect it to be 'fixed' or sympathy just to do so - things just very difficult right now on an internal level and the lack of enthusiasm for usually one of my favorite things proving to be a very unsettling manifestation of that.
Wish could get back a little of the energy and feeling I had that inspired me to make this post a few months ago....
So apologies for this rant, and if thread really doesn't belong here, my apologies to site staff - it can be moved to whatever sub-forum is most fitting. I just felt had to say this somewhere and don't expect it to be 'fixed' or sympathy just to do so - things just very difficult right now on an internal level and the lack of enthusiasm for usually one of my favorite things proving to be a very unsettling manifestation of that.
Wish could get back a little of the energy and feeling I had that inspired me to make this post a few months ago....