Thread: i'm still around

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a lot of you have sent me kind messages, so i'm leaving a general post to all of you. thankyou, for checking in on me. i check in occasionally, but i haven't posted. i'm just having a hard year. i have been struggling with depression and it's been very hard. i never thought that a "normal" person could feel this way, but i'm trying to grow and learn from the heart ache and hoplessness. it's ridculous to feel this way and i know. i need you all to be here for me and don't let me stray from this wonderful community. harrass me...please!

Kallie! Good to hear from you again. I hadn't seen you around and was wondering what had happened. I'll be sending good thoughts your way, and welcome back!

Kallie Sweetie, It's so good to see you're back. You are very much loved here, really truly you are, and when you're not here it's very noticeable. I know with depression it's much harder to reach out, but please know there are many of us that deeply do care.

Kallie come spend more time here with us. We all care about you so much.

Muffy

harassment is not a problem LOL..I deal with depression all the time and the stuff the doctor gives me sucks ..so I know what you go through,
also i've found out it's hard to wear a frown when i'm in the chat room everyone always makes me laugh.. too much sometimes
don't make me come down there and pull you out of the house LOL
I,m defenately gonna keep checking in on you now
come out and play soon ...please
your friend... Randy

KALLIE!!! Man, I was surprised to see you name on here. Damn good to hear from you.

I can sympathize with the depression stuff. Everyone will tell you "just snap out of it". You just want to choke 'em until you hear their vertebrae snap and then crawl back into you hole until the next victim shows up with a "what have you got to be depressed about". OH YEAH..........I can sympathize.

But it does help to get out of the house, spend time with friends (and that also means US). So we will expect to see more of you here, yes????YES!!!

Originally Posted by RookieSpooker

You just want to choke 'em until you hear their vertebrae snap and then crawl back into you hole until the next victim shows up

I've always wanted to do that to those people. And I'm sure that some of the ones I work with, know that I may just do it to them.
It took me a couple of tries before I was given the "proper" meds and dosage. But each day is a new one and I WILL be the Last one standing.

That and the Oingo Bingo Song "Only Makes Me Laugh" enters my head.


"I don't know why I feel this way
I don't know if it's right or wrong to laugh at misfortune
Darkness can never last too long

Every time I think I'm falling
And there's nobody around to hold me up
And it seems like the world has come to an end
I look for miles but not a face is friendly
Then suddenly a hole opens up in the ground
The bottom of the hole is a raging fire
I try to jump over but there's no way
The next thing I know, I'm going down

(Chorus)
Does it hurt?
Oh, it really doesn't matter
Does it burn?
Oh, I don't feel a thing
Does it sting?
Oh, yeah, it really doesn't matter
Does it hurt?
Oh, I don't give a damn
When I find myself falling and I hit the bottom
It only makes me laugh
It only makes me laugh
When I go down the hole and I hit the bottom

The last time that I fell in love
The love was milk and honey but the milk turned sour
The woman became a monster
And everyone I knew had become a stranger
And the room went black and my luck was spent
The floor opened up, down I went

(Repeat Chorus)

It only makes me laugh
It only makes me laugh
It only makes me laugh
Coming right back
Coming right back
'Cause you can't keep me down
Can't keep me down
Oh, in the ground

Does it hurt?
Oh, it really doesn't matter
Does it burn?
Oh, I don't feel a thing
I don't mind just a little pain
Ooh, oh yeah
Whoa...

Remembering when I was a young man
How everything seemed to turn against me
I didn't know a soul, it was an alien place
The sun was covered by a dark cloud
And though I tried, I couldn't find a way to escape
The only way to go was straight down

(Repeat Chorus)

It only makes me laugh
It only makes me laugh
It only makes me laugh
It only makes me laugh

I don't know why I feel this way
I don't know if it's right or wrong to laugh at misfortune
Darkness can never last too long...
When you laugh in its face
When you laugh in its face
I don't know why I feel this way...

Kallie, hon, I am thinking of you, sending caring and healing vibes your way.