Thread: Monday and the END of april, closer we get

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Oh my, Sivart has become HOMER SIMPSON!! Eeeegaddds!

We are supposed to have rain tonight and tomorrow MOON, that's probably the reason for the cloud build up. Good night to watch a horror flick if the rain actually makes it!!!

2 hours until BEER-30! Can't wait! Too bad you aren't having much fun MOON! If I was over there, I guarantee that we would! Can't wait for the Memorial Day Massacre. I am hoping that you are planning it for Sunday and not on Monday, but whatever will work. Monday I won't be able to drink since I will have to drive back to St Tweet after the festivities but on Sunday, I am getting a room at the Hampton Inn Mt Dora! At least that is the tentative plan at this juncture.

Well...here's what happened Rotting.

I am feeling very lonely lately. (get the pity party rocking.....) It's my day off I have no friends in MT dora. My husband will not be home until late (of course)

My FU)^&*)_ car is STILL not ready.....I have decided it was beer thrity at about 2:45pm. I just justify-- for ME it is actually the weekend. RIGHT?

I have not seen my friend's Brenda & Troy all week...they owe on a bar tab *SIGH*. Their dam middle child stood me up Sunday night. I have a lot of fun with this boy (who is actually a 29 yr old man. If I was 10 yrs younger wouldn't have a chance <EG> Well you never know I might get drunk and be in the right place at the right time and he still won't be able to walk for weeks.....)..So as far as Memorial day goes as soon as their "eagle Flies on Friday and the boys break out the rum" I am sure I will know somethin more.

NOw I am gonna go take a shower, open another beer and debate takin a cab up to the restaurant (we could actually WALK it) because I promised the kids we could go up for dinner...but of course during Happy hour.......

I'll be back.....

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and so it is [u]FRIDAY</u> for most of you! congrats for making it thru another week! [image]http://adwoff.com/ubb/graemlins/9b-bouncer.gif[/image]

ME....my HORRORscope explains it all,

quote:It's a day for you to use your mental prowess and dig right into the bottom of the volcano. Focus your perceptual abilities until you can see the center of the hurricane. There is nothing to fear, for you can gain incredible strength from the stillness in the center. When you find yourself getting pulled back into the winds of change, once again reclaim your own center and your own inner peace. The retrospective period is over. Get ready to move into your future.

Don't know guys....want some soul baring? Since the beginning of this NEW year, David and I made a PACT (well ok HE DID I listened but seemed to be taken along for the ride) that 04 would bring change in EVERY direction possible.

I started with the physical. I hated myself, the way I felt, the way I was aging. As of today 55 lbs lighter and thanks to grueling restaurant/bar side work I am 55 lbs lighter and a hell of a lot more tone.

BUT it is not enough. Seems my Chakras are so off...I feel no peace or inner balance, what so ever [image]http://adwoff.com/ubb/graemlins/sad2.gif[/image].....Last evening I sat on the deck at Zellie's while the children played. ALONE with my pitcher of Mich lite andid that *DEEP* thinking we all do on occasssion.

I am sick and tired of feeling like I am going thru this world ALONE. BUT if alone I must be, so be it.
My friends are either virtual OR all live faraway. From this day forward, it will all be back focused on the children. F*&^ everyone else.

If I need to put up with Wendy {MY Boss} minus her prozac and be demeaned for the 3 hour dinner rush a night, so be it. The money is good. The work has put me in shape and I can keep up with any of the dam 20yr olds there...


So with the coming of Beltane and Spring... a time for NEW begining for the year, it is time to now work from the inside out. Learn who the hell I am again and get some dam balance before I drink myself into a stupor due to lonliness & unhappiness...due to being lonely.


I am a BI&CH because I am a STRONG person. Time to recover that....

So there ya got it. We are off to MAULmart this morning. MY month of "poor pitiful me, I am tired & can't handle it" is over. Time to focus back in on home & hearth, get it together around here for when I am not here. Everyone has been doing their JOB but me, even tho I was trying to convince myself I have been doing what is BEST for all involved.

anyone else care to bare their soul today?

[image]http://adwoff.com/ubb/graemlins/pkiss1.gif[/image] to all!

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Sorry to hear this Moon, but as I read between the lines it looks like you got a lot of good there too. I work 10 hour nights at a job I don't like to try to keep up with the bills. I spend most of my 3 weeks+ vacation time driving my wife back and forth from the hospital. See, everybody hurts every once in a wile.




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